Hello there. It’s been a while. And yet, it’s as though I’ve never left this space. Missing our Jaxy as much as ever, as we recently “celebrated” what would have been their 20th birthday. Hard to celebrate what SHOULD have been instead of what is – but I guess that may change with time. Still sad beyond words. Still angry, though maybe a bit less so. Still driven to do… something. Just not so focused these days. Survival mode, for now.

From Day One

From day one
I always knew
I’d love you forever
Life’s greatest gift
But not like this.
Living in a rear view mirror universe.

From day one
I always knew
You’d be so special
Always wanted
But not like this.
Chasing joy, not chasing ghosts.

From day one
I always knew
We’d be inseparable
Peas in a pod
But not like this.
My spirit missing its center, searches.

From day one
I always knew
You’d challenge me
Open my eyes
But not like this.
The veil hides the colors of your light.

From day one
I always knew
I’d do anything for you
Fight or die. Or live.
But not like this.
Just in your name is just not the same.

From day one
I always knew
One day you’d take flight
And leave the nest
But not like this.
Good night was not supposed to be goodbye.

From day one
I always knew
You’d make me stronger
A better man
But not like this.
No, not like this.